I have realized that I am in love with an idea, an idea that I will find my soulmate and when we meet the sparks will fly it will feel electric and we will not be able to take our eyes off of each other and will feel like we cannot keep living unless we talk to one another. I am in love with the idea that when we kiss it will feel like magic and I will never want to stop kissing him, we will have so many common interests but enough things different about us that we cannot help but fall in love with each other more for those differences. I am in love with this idea that another human being is out there waiting for me feeling as incomplete as I do, but I know it is just an idea and in reality I should give up this silly idea because for all I know he is on the other side of the planet, twice my age, in love with someone else, not interested in women, or just plainly he does not exist which is what I fear the most.

~Jamie